I'm feeling the low grade depression; the corona got me unravelling, The future is bleak - economic depression, Socioeconomic suffering hidden from the public eye, It's crazy that the abstract concept of an economy can afflict, So much damage in reality, People out of work - locked up inside, For the best - I guess, … Continue reading 2020 – helluva’ year.
My abdomen feels expansive, as if there were infinite space within. When I breathe I feel as I'm running a marathon, as if an inhale could go on forever, as if it were infinitely deep. When I sleep I feel as if I'm not really asleep, yawning throughout the day. My mind is racing, I … Continue reading My breath
To walk across a lake, to walk on water - one need not be jesus. The frozen lake offers a path for all willing to dare, those who are willing to step onto the ice freshly laid bare. An exciting journey no doubt, for who love not skating about? Cheap thrills borne of uncertain steps; … Continue reading The Frozen Lake
Mystery, alluring - ignorant to reality, Fantasy coursing through my veins, A dopamanergic oxytocinergic cocktail - Song stuck in my head - get outta my head, Idealistic & probably not realistic, The unknown - cannot figure out, Inquiry, disequilibrated state - constructivist; Need to amend my conceptual model, Just one taste, just a little - … Continue reading Mystery
Man stands on the shoulders of giants but in the shadows of gods, Gods who blow the burn the houses we build and yet, we lay brick atop crust and we trust, Insignificant in comparsion can we ever conquer the elements? Compressed carbon and coal, ignite and set alight Rest in peace mother earth we … Continue reading Mother Earth, we loved you.
I feel so happy, and yet I feel fearful. I feel fear because my mind can easily get away from me, away from reality. The fantastical fantastic realm of ideas, of possibilities, this realm consumes me. My mind runs in four directions, pulling me; the birthing of ideas on overdrive. The words they run right … Continue reading tilted towards the sky.
Fiery red molten flame exhales the air that fills the balloon, heat rises with the heart; turbulence, don't wanna tumble to the depths. Inhale, exhale; I rise again. Afraid of the heights, how far can I go? My hot air balloon has room for two, wow what a view. Drifting above the clouds with someone … Continue reading above the clouds
Steady with the pace, roll, rolling down the rolling, hills, yeah this is the place, this is where i'm whole, and with each passing day, each rehersal, each performance, the play; a twisting of events, threatre playing out before my eyes, can you slow this horse? the look on your face, o' how it takes … Continue reading rolling my r’s
What do you want? A simple question, or so it seems; but how often have you silently sat, and pondered what it truly is that you desire? Do you know, well, shit, I don't even know; how can one even know? Well, it seems that in life we use one thing as a reference to … Continue reading What do you want?
I've been toxic lately. I'm not trying to, or going to excuse my behaviour. I was wrong, I feel guilty and I feel painfully self aware of my own toxic tendencies. I have to forgive myself though, because I know this is just the external manifestation of internal pain. Still, no excuse for my behaviour; … Continue reading My Confession.