Being wrong has never felt so sweet. Emotions are a mysterious thing, especially not being raised in a way that promoted emotional intelligence, so of course I was wrong. I was wrong because I didn't know what success felt like—I had no frame of reference. History, the harshest teacher, had taught me anxiety and uncertainty … Continue reading Communication, oh silly me!
To like, to love; no in between.
To like and to love is separated by international waters; one couldn't possibly mistake one for the other. And still, we find ourselves floating in our lonely boat in deep water, and yet, no matter how much we wish to wash up on the shores of love if the wind does not blow, then, well, … Continue reading To like, to love; no in between.
How to feel
How to feel, please tell me how to feel. I wish I could reveal how I feel if only I could put a name to it - I wish I knew how to feel. I feel so confused and I don't know what's what; I'm so used to anxiety and obsession that I don't know … Continue reading How to feel
2020 – helluva’ year.
I'm feeling the low grade depression; the corona got me unravelling, The future is bleak - economic depression, Socioeconomic suffering hidden from the public eye, It's crazy that the abstract concept of an economy can afflict, So much damage in reality, People out of work - locked up inside, For the best - I guess, … Continue reading 2020 – helluva’ year.
My breath
My abdomen feels expansive, as if there were infinite space within. When I breathe I feel as I'm running a marathon, as if an inhale could go on forever, as if it were infinitely deep. When I sleep I feel as if I'm not really asleep, yawning throughout the day. My mind is racing, I … Continue reading My breath
The Frozen Lake
To walk across a lake, to walk on water - one need not be jesus. The frozen lake offers a path for all willing to dare, those who are willing to step onto the ice freshly laid bare. An exciting journey no doubt, for who love not skating about? Cheap thrills borne of uncertain steps; … Continue reading The Frozen Lake
Mystery
Mystery, alluring - ignorant to reality, Fantasy coursing through my veins, A dopamanergic oxytocinergic cocktail - Song stuck in my head - get outta my head, Idealistic & probably not realistic, The unknown - cannot figure out, Inquiry, disequilibrated state - constructivist; Need to amend my conceptual model, Just one taste, just a little - … Continue reading Mystery
Mother Earth, we loved you.
Man stands on the shoulders of giants but in the shadows of gods, Gods who blow the burn the houses we build and yet, we lay brick atop crust and we trust, Insignificant in comparsion can we ever conquer the elements? Compressed carbon and coal, ignite and set alight Rest in peace mother earth we … Continue reading Mother Earth, we loved you.
tilted towards the sky.
I feel so happy, and yet I feel fearful. I feel fear because my mind can easily get away from me, away from reality. The fantastical fantastic realm of ideas, of possibilities, this realm consumes me. My mind runs in four directions, pulling me; the birthing of ideas on overdrive. The words they run right … Continue reading tilted towards the sky.
above the clouds
Fiery red molten flame exhales the air that fills the balloon, heat rises with the heart; turbulence, don't wanna tumble to the depths. Inhale, exhale; I rise again. Afraid of the heights, how far can I go? My hot air balloon has room for two, wow what a view. Drifting above the clouds with someone … Continue reading above the clouds
