To like and to love is separated by international waters; one couldn't possibly mistake one for the other. And still, we find ourselves floating in our lonely boat in deep water, and yet, no matter how much we wish to wash up on the shores of love if the wind does not blow, then, well, … Continue reading To like, to love; no in between.
How to feel, please tell me how to feel. I wish I could reveal how I feel if only I could put a name to it - I wish I knew how to feel. I feel so confused and I don't know what's what; I'm so used to anxiety and obsession that I don't know … Continue reading How to feel
I'm feeling the low grade depression; the corona got me unravelling, The future is bleak - economic depression, Socioeconomic suffering hidden from the public eye, It's crazy that the abstract concept of an economy can afflict, So much damage in reality, People out of work - locked up inside, For the best - I guess, … Continue reading 2020 – helluva’ year.
Mystery, alluring - ignorant to reality, Fantasy coursing through my veins, A dopamanergic oxytocinergic cocktail - Song stuck in my head - get outta my head, Idealistic & probably not realistic, The unknown - cannot figure out, Inquiry, disequilibrated state - constructivist; Need to amend my conceptual model, Just one taste, just a little - … Continue reading Mystery
I feel so happy, and yet I feel fearful. I feel fear because my mind can easily get away from me, away from reality. The fantastical fantastic realm of ideas, of possibilities, this realm consumes me. My mind runs in four directions, pulling me; the birthing of ideas on overdrive. The words they run right … Continue reading tilted towards the sky.
What do you want? A simple question, or so it seems; but how often have you silently sat, and pondered what it truly is that you desire? Do you know, well, shit, I don't even know; how can one even know? Well, it seems that in life we use one thing as a reference to … Continue reading What do you want?
I've been toxic lately. I'm not trying to, or going to excuse my behaviour. I was wrong, I feel guilty and I feel painfully self aware of my own toxic tendencies. I have to forgive myself though, because I know this is just the external manifestation of internal pain. Still, no excuse for my behaviour; … Continue reading My Confession.
Our deep seated beliefs influence how our life unfolds, for better or worse. If, deep down we believe that we are unloveable then we will have reactions and take actions that will unfold the destiny that we truly fear right before us; we are creating the very thing that we fear most. We recreate our … Continue reading Abandonment, rejection and fear.
Women have been a point of weakness for me. The novelty of a new face, the lustful seductress leading me back to her place. Why is their house always empty when they invite me inside? My lust blinded me to the distinct lack of furniture, of anything of substance really. Nethertheless I would motion to … Continue reading women.
A river can never flow incorrectly, for its flow is perfect no matter where it decides to go. As water moves down the river, it slides itself down, around and over anything in its way. The rock that lay in its path stands tall and strong in the face of the turbulent force of the … Continue reading The Tao.