Uncertainly certain that something was amiss, certainly certain that I was remiss; set your house in order and you too can feel bliss. Stand up straight with your shoulders back, and clean up your room. Tend to that which you have neglected, and shine a light on the dark corners of your being and illuminate … Continue reading Positive Resonance.
The world ways heavy on my shoulders. All the pieces can be perfectly placed, and still the world weighs heavy; weighs-less sometimes, but sometimes the weight is more than can be upheld, more than I can carry alone. A weight to be carried alone or at least it feels this way; friends and family are … Continue reading
Life is restless. We fidget, move and yearn for activity, for stimulation beyond right now... beyond the enveloping sensation of the present moment. There is something to be said about taking the necessary repeatable steps of self-care, introspection, financial stability... However, after that, what else is there? Yes, you may pursue a noble goal and … Continue reading There is nothing beyond what you require; you need not more than is sufficient.
What is the perfect partner... is there such a thing... would I even know if she was placed perfectly in front of me? How am I supposed to feel, what are the signs, what should I look for? I want to feel stimulated and mentally involved; I want conversations to arise out of the banalities … Continue reading Tentative, uncertain, doubts; love.
And with courageous bravery the hero steps outside the protective armour; outside the city walls, In a new city, only 10 months ago, and yet I continue to lay my roots. Each connection worth its weight in gold, and yet, I still chose to fold. Cannot be friends, is what she did say; I understood. … Continue reading Changes
To like and to love is separated by international waters; one couldn't possibly mistake one for the other. And still, we find ourselves floating in our lonely boat in deep water, and yet, no matter how much we wish to wash up on the shores of love if the wind does not blow, then, well, … Continue reading To like, to love; no in between.
How to feel, please tell me how to feel. I wish I could reveal how I feel if only I could put a name to it - I wish I knew how to feel. I feel so confused and I don't know what's what; I'm so used to anxiety and obsession that I don't know … Continue reading How to feel
I'm feeling the low grade depression; the corona got me unravelling, The future is bleak - economic depression, Socioeconomic suffering hidden from the public eye, It's crazy that the abstract concept of an economy can afflict, So much damage in reality, People out of work - locked up inside, For the best - I guess, … Continue reading 2020 – helluva’ year.
Mystery, alluring - ignorant to reality, Fantasy coursing through my veins, A dopamanergic oxytocinergic cocktail - Song stuck in my head - get outta my head, Idealistic & probably not realistic, The unknown - cannot figure out, Inquiry, disequilibrated state - constructivist; Need to amend my conceptual model, Just one taste, just a little - … Continue reading Mystery
I feel so happy, and yet I feel fearful. I feel fear because my mind can easily get away from me, away from reality. The fantastical fantastic realm of ideas, of possibilities, this realm consumes me. My mind runs in four directions, pulling me; the birthing of ideas on overdrive. The words they run right … Continue reading tilted towards the sky.